Unfortunately I’m not as flexible as I used to be.
Part of my frustration in yoga these days is that I can no longer do what I “used” to be able to do and I find it difficult to accept and be content with where I am right now.
My teachers have often reminded me that the attitude we have on the mat usually mirrors our attitude towards life off the mat and reflecting on this early this morning I had to admit that sometimes I still get caught up in the mindset of “I’ll be happy when……”.
Some current and incredibly superficial examples in my life of this mindset include, but are not limited to:
- When the kids stop waking up at 5:30am – I’ll be happy
- When I don’t have to pay rent – I’ll be happy
- When I buy that dress / pair of shoes / handbag – I’ll be happy
And so on. Shameful but true. Although I suspect I’m not the only one struggling at times with an awareness of the present moment.
My 30 minute Quiet Quest today is an asana practice with a focus on forward bends. While forward bends don’t infuriate me the way that hip openers do – they do tend to give me a small case of the “I’ll be happy when….”. Specifically – I’ll be happy in a forward bend when my chest is resting against the top of my thighs and my back is flat!
For the record – I’m a long way off attaining that.
Today’s practice was a good reminder of the popular posters on Pinterest that say yoga isn’t about touching your toes, it’s about the journey down there.